My Journey

We all have a path to our lives…. we don’t always know why we are on them until we discover the reason. I have led a journey, like everyone else, with two different roads that lead to one path. The first journey is obvious; it is the one that everyone can see..It’s the outside journey. My journey started with having what looked like amazing parents (they were in their own way!). I was… a bright student, popular and active in all types of activities and organizations…cheerleader, Senior Class Vice President, theater and dance, camp counselor and religious school teacher… a graduate from UCLA, Sorority board member, Camp Director, and successful business woman…a responsible and loving Mom, homemaker, and a wife of over 20 years…. a major contributor of time and money to Jewish Schools, an effective fundraiser and board member for many organizations.

BUT, this is not my entire story. Underneath it all, I felt unhappy…not all the time, I had wonderful moments and occasions in my life, but I had a sense of anxiety, fear, and some depression…a feeling of unhappiness. I never understood why. It seemed as though I had it all!!! At least it looked like I had it all....even to myself, but I didn’t feel content inside.

The understanding of my inside journey really starts at the age of 20 when I could no longer sleep. “Insomnia” it was called and I didn’t know why!? I would lay awake with anxiety all night long…fear of the future…of what was ahead of me in my life. I was given a name of a therapist, a wonderful man who was a Freudian analyst. This time together was the beginning of my journey into self -development… what I call the attainment of the “Higher Self”. I was in analysis for 17 years; examining my dreams and acknowledging my unconscious. I was probably aware of my issues more than anyone I knew my age and older, but, although awareness helped me move through my busy and successful life week by week, I still didn’t feel content or completely grateful. Therapy did not “transform” me. When I “graduated” therapy (as we called it), it was as if I had received my PHD in psychology… 17 years of studying my mind and my relationships. I used my work to become a better parent, friend and wife, but I was still not feeling content within myself.

Ken and I were involved in YPO (Young Presidents Organization) when we were in our late 30’s. We decided, after he had sold his business “It’s All Greek to Me” and didn’t know what to do with his life, to attend a “Members in Transition” seminar for a week in Boulder, Colorado. We didn’t know what we were getting into at the time, but we became involved in Shadow Work, a fascinating process, based on Carl Jung’s practices, of looking at shadows or blocks and clearing them in a process of role- playing and childhood regression exercises. I learned so fast and soon I was clearing my inner blocks myself and taking week long courses to become a facilitator. I became a certified Shadow Work Facilitator and, again, practiced my knowledge on family and friends. I found the Shadow Work process to be much more helpful than my therapy in a shorter amount of time, but it wasn’t completely right for me to practice professionally. I was still busy with my “other”, more successful life.


Throughout all of these years of self- development, I found myself wanting to learn more and more. I am a true “Student of Life”. My passion is Education, and because I experienced Jewish education through my up-bringing, and now with my own children, I delved into studying my religion’s rituals and beliefs, interpretations of the Torah and the writings of the Sages. I studied continuously for over 10 years with many great Rabbi’s and scholars. I taught, like my Father, who had been a teacher for over 45 years, as a Jewish Family Educator and Parent Discussion Group Leader. Through these experiences and by attending and participating in many hours of lectures, classes and seminars and workshops, I became more spiritually aware.

I then found a spiritual guide in Los Angeles that launched me to new heights, as I continued to clear more of my own blocks (also known as defenders, protections of the heart etc…). An example of these blocks can be anger, feeling competitive or envious, low self-esteem and never feeling “good enough”. These are messages that anyone can create by experiencing different patterns in their family life and experiences. I had my own patterns that were created by my own messages.

Throughout all of my experiences, I have now become clear of many of my blocks. I am able to help others now on their path. I am finally in my “Higher Self” and I continue to work on myself daily and grow to be the best I can be. The results of my work are that I sleep every night, do not feel anxious, and have physical health and well being. I truly feel blessed, but the work has been difficult. There have been times, when I was going through my many changes, and it felt endless. I wanted to quit and literally die….but I found the strength to carry on. I have found that it takes pain, sacrifice and struggle to fully grow, but the rewards are great, if you can face the challenges.


I have recently received a certificate as a Guided Imagery Facilitator. I use this practice along with questions and exercises, written by my husband and myself, and other tools from Ancient Jewish Mysticism to help individuals discover their true intentions and create affirmations that can be fulfilled if they choose to do so.

My goal now is to create more connection between people. By helping individuals find their true selves, they can build closer, more intimate relationships; the key to contentment and happiness.

Through my Wisdom Circles and/or Personal Guidance Sessions, anyone can become clearer, more true and have more loving and intimate relationships.

That is my journey…of course….to be continued!!!! What is your Journey?